Vent/Rant Thread

Lemondolly

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
I really hope I don't have an F in Chemistry. But then again, I have A's in everything else, so maybe it's not my fault, but the teacher's.
 

Iscabird

Ritsu's Renegades
Defender of Defoko
I just wish someone would hold me in their arms and tell me that it'll all be okay and that I shouldn't hate myself.

I hate every part of me.
 

R.K.

Teto's Territory
I'm really crying a lot -- l-liiike I feel that no one cares when I cry and that's a huge deal to me . . .

Can someone just protect me or something? Like -- u.. h -- I dunno, man just like... I just wanna be protected from my insecurities...

don't be mad at me w-whenver i get insecure please! please! please! please!!?!? i need you to tell me im beautiful when i cry and that im not a crybaby i hate crying it makes me so tired and i just cant -- i think i sound ugly when i cry now because everyone thinks i do it all the time like im a friend im not please dont call me it dont make me beg for you to heal me please i dont want to scream for it anymore im dying dont i matter to any of you please just make me live im scared im really scared and this isnt what Dotty feels this isnt right for me at all

**** this noise **** this noise **** this noise **** this noise **** this noise **** this noise please just **** all of this noise this is all noise that can be muted out but you have to do it please get rid of it **** this noise
 

SakisCookie

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
I've got two~.

This first one isn't really a rant. More of a plea, I guess. I really encourage you to read it. :sad:

Whenever I see that someone has posted in this thread, I like to read it. Not because I'm nosy or what-not, but because I'm looking for something in specific.
I see so many of you post about how lonely you are. About how you hate yourself or feel like no one cares. And really, it rips my heart out. I might just be one little, insignificant Saki, but I really do care about all of you. I hate seeing people talk themselves down or say that no one is there. I know it isn't much, but I want to be there. If I had the chance to message each one of you privately and tell you everything I like about you, it would take way WAY too long. So I just...well...if you really feel you have no one to talk to, I invite you to talk to me. I'm a pretty easy girl to converse with. Heck, all you really have to do is send me a blank message and I'll start a conversation. I mean it. Don't feel like no one cares. There is always someone who does. Smiley face.

Now, THIS one is a rant.

UHAIHIAsh why do I have to be the only library aide that knows how to work a stinkin' computer? I know I live in the middle of hick town, but this is getting ridiculous. Every morning, no matter what I'm doing, I have to stop and put it aside to help every teacher and student figure out where the power button is! Today, I had to teach an administrator what 'number lock' meant. Then I had to search up a few books and then locate them for people. I mean, really? How do you not know how to use a poopin' search bar!? IT'S A BAR THAT YOU SEARCH WITH THIS ISN'T ROCKET SCIENCE.
 

Fawkesy

Ruko's Ruffians
Defender of Defoko
My rant about my recent purchase of shoes from justfab.com
So, the purchase went fine and everything, but I had to make an account to order anything. But what I didn't know was that when you purchase something, you become a VIP member, meaning they will charge you like $40 every month to buy their shoes. You can skip a month and it won't charge you, but you'll get member credit or some shit. But anyways, I had just purchased some shoes and I've been waiting for them to arrive. Fedex said that they are still 'Out for Delivery'. But, I went out to get the mail and I saw a box next to the recycle bin. I had thought it was trash or something, because the box was bent to hell, and halfway open! There was plastic wrap (something you'd use to cover uhhhh food.), and tape going everywhere EXCEPT going across the freaking two flaps that keep the box closed. Great packaging, guys. But anyways, I look at it more closely and see the JustFab.com on the box, and was like "Hmmm, okay. Guess these are my shoes." So I bring the box upstairs and open it up. The box the shoes were in was bent too. Great, just great. I was so worried something would be wrong with the shoes. But to my relief they were fine! And they were the right size. (I was glad about the size, because honestly, my shoe size changes with every shoe somehow)
ANYWHO, there was a paper inside the half open box that said they would charge me money and whatnot every month, and I was like "WAIAIHIFHGAIWUFRKS, wait, what? Seriously?" That's complete and utter bullshit. I did NOT buy a pair of shoes, just to be automatically signed up for a monthly shoe subscription. I DON'T EVEN LIKE SHOES, I'd rather go barefoot..... Which I actually did for a good month or so. I just wanted something cute for Thanksgivings. :c
But anyways, I got on their website and went to their nice like cancel account button, only to be told I have to call their phone line to cancel.
So then, I call. I'm waiting for an operator for about 20 minutes. And I'm listening to god awful music. Press 4 for account cancellation, press 1 if you're using the phone number you signed up with, yada yada.
I finally get a person, and they talk and talk and give their long introduction. They finally let me speak, and I say I want to cancel the account. She gives this long dialog about how I should keep my account and give them a chance. I'm like "No thanks, I just really want to cancel my account" So she does it..I think....I have received no notification of account cancellation, yet. If they even send one.
But long story short. Don't bother with JustFab.com seriously a waste of time and money.
 

Tophat

Momo's Minion
UghmanIgottoomanynotimportantthingsonmymindandIknowIshouldusemytimebetterinreallifesinceIcantgotocollageandImstayinghometohelptakecareofmymotherandherhubbybecausehehasabadneckandmomgotcancerandIfeelsohelplessinthesituationandIhaventgottimetogooutandhangoutwithmysiblingswholivewithdadormyfriendswhomallyoungerthanmeandstillgotohighschoolandIfeelsolonelyTheinternetdoesnthelpmucheitherIthinkitsmakingitworseandIkeeponprocrastinatingeverythingIwannadobecausethisisalwaysnaggingonmymindandcausemetothinkoftheworstcasescenarioseverytimeIleavebecausethelasttimeItriedtorelaxwhilegonemomhemorrhagedandImscareditllhappenagainifItrytodothingsIwanttodoIhaventleftthehouseformonthsImstressedoutandIdontevenknowwhatImdoinganymore...

I think I need a hug... ;~;
 

Mrs.Peach

Married Sugar Mama
Global Mod
Defender of Defoko
random  stuff triggering flashbacks into my younger days of things i want to forget
 

shinami

Procrastination Queen
Tutor
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
my issues are so minor compared to most people's but i still want to complain

FFFFFFFFF Mr. Vocaloid P person, why you no release off vocal for the remix you did of your own song? And then even acknowledge that people want it but you won't give it? And then proceed to give away off vocals for other remixes of your own songs? They probably have their reasons but still huuuuge super disappoint. mega disappoint. very. i like the remix so much sob. and this happens too often.
 

IrisFlower

Precious Flower with Thorns
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
Two rants both about friends.

First....I'm kinda sad...there are friends who haven't talked to me in ages even though I've tried talking to them...I feel like they don't want to talk with me unless I have praise for their work(these are creative friends in general). And even then I know all they'll say to me is "thanks" and move on with their lives. I've sent these people messages like "hey hows it going?" or "hey ya know I have this problem would you mind helping me out?" Or maybe by some grace of God they contact me first and after I reply I get nothing.

I'm not even bombarding them this is maybe three messages over the span of months.

What's wrong with me I wonder that makes these people want to have nothing to do with me..."Oh they're busy with other stuff, Iris! I'm sure you get busy with other things don't be such a crybaby! They're just busy!"

Oh yeah...so busy that I see them talking to other people who are also my friends but I'm such a piece of shit they can't bother to deal with me, huh? Yes. Lovely. No wait...let's not forget the time they take out of their day to talk and assist strangers with their problems and yet whoohoo here I am! Don't mind me I'll be over here waiting for you to talk to me. For the rest of my life.

Seriously...do I seem angry? Maybe I am but it's more of a hurt sadness than anger. Like I thought we were friends but I guess I'm not good enough for you afterall. That's fine...I have other friends who care, don't know why I bothered trying with you people.

Even if you're a little busy remember it's always nice to leave a friendly ****ing hello to the people who care about you. JFC.

Second rant:

My gift arts are special. For friends. Don't just be my friend so I'll draw you something. Be my friend because you like talking to me and we have common interests. If you find our friendship isn't working tell me. I'll be hurt but at least you were honest and we can both move on happily.
 

shinami

Procrastination Queen
Tutor
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
Ahhhhh Iris you make me think of my guilts.

I often take internet hiatuses, generally to play a new video game with my home time instead, but eventually I stop for some reason and I dread going back online. Especially with dA. I'm afraid ot even touch it because if I'm online then I feel like people expect me to do things, which a responsible person would do.

but no i run and hide because my inbox is so crazily full
and my youtube email
dear god
i am never going to get through that thing

I just feel like that if I come back, I have to do everything at once. So I run away. And I feel like a horrible person because I'm being a bad friend to everyone and not holding my promises and fffffff. I'm slowly trickling back now through YouTube and here, but I'm still tentative to go back to dA. Especially when right now I'm super concerned about school projects and college which I've been running away from.

college
i'm so afraid of it
And sad. Because I'm going to college based on price. Not what it has, not the programs, I haven't even visited a college, but only based on tuition and being able to commute. The college I'm looking at has even tried in the past to cut the major I want to go into. I just feel really depressed when everyone at my genius, upper-middle-class school all go "Oh, I'm going to New York" and talk about how pretty a college they visited was when I feel so bitter and cynical - the world runs on money, you can never do what you want in life, so resign yourself to going into a field you will probably never be satisfied in.
i should be happy though because i'm saving ten thousand dollars and i won't have to buy an apartment
i really should
...i'm so sheltered i really wish i wasn't but i'm so afraid of life

merp
YAY NOW SHINAMI'S HAD AN EMO MOMENT YAY~
I'll get over all of this. I always do. XD
Just a whiny teenager being emotional.
 

SugarSweetVenom

Momo's Minion
Friendly advice. Please forgive me if it is a bit cheesy >//w//< .
I plan on writing complaints of my own later, but for now I hope to help some others with their problems as well.

Can't sleep? :
Human bodies need A LOT of nutrients in order to function properly. If you have been very restless at night maybe you should reconsider your diet? This is not a joke at anybody's expense, you're diet has a lot to do with your internal clock.

If you are eating too many starches then it is giving you access energy, and if you don't burn it you end up fitfully rolling around in your bed all night. Just to be clear starch provides the human body with energy through a chemical reaction in the body once digested; it can be found in bread, pasta, potatoes, and fatty/sugary food.  So if you eat a lot of any of those foods you should consider cutting back on them to give yourself the proper rest you deserve.

It's a well known fact football players eat Spaghetti before any major football games so they have the energy to compete at their full potential. So if you need energy for a big day tomorrow you might want to consider having some starchy food, but make sure it's in moderation or else you will be sleepless yet again.

Feel upset?
Ever hear the old saying " You are what you eat? " , it's more true then you think. I'll admit junk food and sweets are very scrumptious, and I am no one to judge you on what you eat ~ ! However if you eat too much of it it'll make you feel awful.

When you think of drugs you may think of illegal substances, however food is also a drug. Drugs are essentially something that have a chemical reaction when ingested in/put on your body. Food can either make or break your day depending on what you eat. Which all boils down to your diet again. If you eat too much junk food, take out, or sweets all the saturated fats and oils will take a toll on you after time. I won't lecture you on The dangers of junk food , fat shame you, or tell you to go vegan. If you suspect that this is the possible reason you may not be feeling good just give it try for a while and see how it makes you feel. If you still feel awful then you may want to try something else.

If you are lonely, depressed, or stressed I recommend picking up a hobby, going to more social events, keeping a journal,  or being more physically active ( Nothing too strenuous, just something you enjoy. ) .  It'll help keep you distracted, sooth your nerves, and just over all make you feel better. I hope my advice has been helpful, and I would like to be more helpful in the future.
 

IrisFlower

Precious Flower with Thorns
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
@shinami
See I knew ranting after you was going to be a bad idea but I was so peeved I really didn't care either way ;;

I didn't mean to make you feel bad honest ;; It's just frustrating when I see friends interacting with others but not me even though I do try and it hurts and I don't think it's fair. It makes me feel like they don't care about me and last night someone solidified that feeling by responding to a message I sent a month and a half ago with like...three words and I was just like "No seriously? **** you. Why would you even bother at this point..."

And they're not the only ones I mean...there are others who I'll keep up with their updates and various creative works and when I post art they don't say a thing to me or even acknowledge it's existence but they'll respond to my comments on their stuff and it's just getting to the point where I've stopped commenting on their art and writing too because it's just going to end in me feeling hurt.

And now it seems like I want attention...and that's totally true I do want attention but not for what you're probably thinking, I just want my friends to acknowledge my existence and show that they still care about me as a person not someone who you could get close to for awhile for the sake of free artsu.

I mean...I understand people being busy but there's a huge difference between being busy and ignoring someone. How can you miss messages I sent months ago but have all the time in the world for my tiny comments? How? I don't understand that ;; How can you take a month and a half to answer a message that NO LONGER HAS ANY SIGNIFICANCE? I even sent them a message telling them that it no longer had significance! Let's see how they respond to that IF they respond at all.

And then there's the fact that I wished them happy birthday, right? Seen them wish other people happy birthdays, "get well soons", "happy holidays", but haven't gotten squat from them myself. That's like...WHY?!?! -flips table-

^^^^^^
All of that is very painful for me because friends are important to me! I've been emotionally and psychologically abused by someone I thought was my friend before, they were a total bully to me so when I get good friends that I feel I can trust I like to hold on to them. When those friends turn around and stab me in the back it hurts and I get very upset. It pisses me off greatly when someone wastes and abuses something like another persons trust and friendship.

Why would you do that to someone?

Ugh...but umm...I'm not ranting at or because of you honest. The floodgates were opened by someone else. u_u
 

shinami

Procrastination Queen
Tutor
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
@Iris

No no no it's okay. I had a feeling that it wasn't about me, but I still felt expressing why I hide so often. I bet everyone wonders if I died and get angry at me when I disappear. ;; and i feel so bad about some art i owe fffffff *crawls under a rock*

But happy belated everything I've missed, we all love you Iris, honest. ; w ;
 

IrisFlower

Precious Flower with Thorns
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
I'm sure no one is mad at you, they're probably just wondering where you went xD Or concerned about you but not angry. You should make a journal or something and let people know you're okay and not dead in a ditch somewhere. For those that don't visit UF and the like I mean.
 

TheSnowSongstress

Momo's Minion
Defender of Defoko
Okay, when someone makes a journal saying "I have to drop all requests and trades due to family issues. i'm really sorry to those who were waiting on me but i won't be able to do much art-wise for a while," I thought that meant, "Hey, i can't do any of my requests or trades because of life. sorry." So when MONTHS LATER someone says you're rude for not telling them, that's not cool.
And don't pull that "I'm apparently just second rate or something. Whatever. " garbage if even though it was stated for everyone and anyone to see, THEY DROPPED EVERYTHING, they decide "I'll just finish your thing then"

When someone says they have to drop all requests and trades, that INCLUDES YOURS. Don't try to guilt trip them when they go back to make art for you after you have insulted them, over something that DID NOT give you the right to do so
 

UkimeKageku

Teto's Territory
I hate my neighbors, they are sooo loud.. We live in a duplex, so their wall is basically attached to ours. Out of the 3 neighbors that have cycled in next to us, these are the loudest.. ; _; Today they were cussing and yelling outside, and 2 fire trucks and some cops came.. I really hope my mom can move us out of here soon.

and on the note of friends..
While I do make sure I can reply to all my messages asap, I always promise to do stuff and end up giving up, or something comes up where I can't do it.. Then my shame makes me not get anything done at all. Most of the time, I have to blame my environment because sometimes my siblings annoy me to the point where I don't feel like doing anything.. I also feel like I put others before myself too much. I'm always helping others, but not really getting things I want to do for myself done.

I'm also having some troubles with jealousy.. I get jealous of certain people I don't even know when they end up being more successful than me in a shorter amount of time. Especially if I feel they had people give them shortcuts, or if they are more fortunate than me and can afford almost everything they want and need to be successful. However it doesn't apply to my friends, when my friends get more success than me, I feel happy for them and want to do what I can to get them even more success.. ;;; I think its my self esteem, although, I can say my confidence for myself has been improving lately..

Oh, and on 12/21/12, I wanna tell someone I really like how I feel about them, I hope I don't blow that.. causeyeahendoftheworldlol XD;
 
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PurinPuff

Guest
I feel a bit selfish to write that I’m feeling a little under appreciated. I’ve always felt like that “last resort” friend, or that friend that’s picked last, and recent history hasn’t quite changed my mind. Don’t get me wrong; I love my friends a lot, and they’re kind to me when we hang out and talk, but I feel like once I’m gone, that’s kind of it. Like, OK, we talked, but now that you’re gone, I’m there’s no need to think or care about you anymore. I know that’s not necessarily the case, and it’s probably just a self illusion that I’ll need to get over, but that’s my feels for the day.

And I know Looney mentioned no UTAU rants, but srsly:

OMG I need to get off my ass and do some mothafukin’ recording bro. I have, like, 4 voicebanks to record, shiit. GET YO ASS ON IT PURIN. kthnx