Vent/Rant Thread

MillyAqualine

Ritsu's Renegades
Defender of Defoko
I'm sorry for you girls ;_; At least, the only "good" thing is that you can go with them for their last moments...

I never could do it... Neither my grandmas or my great-grand-mother...

And **** now lmy usual Pc made a weird stuff after a bug and now I'm dead scared it'd be dying ;^; and there's nobody on chatbox to answer me and now I'm stressnig, I refuse to lsoe all my stuffs, I refuse to have to stay with this emergency laptop (I wno't be able to put UTAU and cie on it so if the other Pc's data disappears, I'm dead too ************
 

Cdra

possibly dead
Global Mod
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
Oh my ****ing god.

My roommate this morning lost one of her textbooks and spent THIRTY MINUTES actually literally SHRIEKING about it while she tore her room apart (more literally than was probably helpful).  She woke up everyone else in the house just from the loudness (we were all still asleep) and continued to scream about how she was going to fail this class because she couldn't find the book and she was gonna get fined because it was a rental book and she went ON AND ON just actually SCREECHING about it.  She even called her mom and continued this.  It sounded like a ****ing two-year-old throwing a tantrum.  "It's not fair!" "It just disappeared into the space-time continuum!" (no lie she ****ing said those exact words) "I'm going to fail!" all in a voice that absolutely just ****ing sounds like it came out of a two-year-old, shrieking about how she couldn't have a pony or some shit.  Thirty minutes.

And then after all that, she has the ****ing AUDACITY to, once she finally found her book, SCREAM AT MY CAT because the cat was in her room sitting on her stuff.  Not tearing anything up or misbehaving, just sitting in there.  To which I finally (still in bed) got sick of hearing it and just yelled "Don't scream at my cat!" across the hall.  She slammed her door and I imagine she won't come out until she's done with this paper, which is fine by me.  And she better have a damn good apology ready when she gets out of there, too.  I'm already getting tired of her shit this semester, this is just one more thing that I refuse to ****ing deal with.

Worst ****ing morning ever.  And I hate mornings, and it's not even actually morning so that's saying even more.  ****.
 

Jpegurl

Teto's Territory
No, I will not show you my drawings.

None of your begging, ignoring me, trying to sneak behind me and see, or your freaking insults will make me want to show you any of my art.

I'm rather insecure about my art, don't you get that? Oh? So I'm STUPID for being like this? Well, I'm sorry I don't meet your standards. Although in complete honesty, I don't really freaking care.

That is all, and I still won't show you what I'm drawing.
 

selcouthic

Momo's Minion
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Stop. Just... stop.
You've been telling me all about these things and suddenly because someone else you like disagrees, you change your mind. But when I disagree with you, you just send me a big paragraph of loathing on my opinions. (There was even a time when you didn't like a fandom I was in and you told me you didn't like it, wrote about how you didn't like it, told me about it once again, and posted hate about it on tumblr...)
And for months, for months I've been dealing with all of your cries and rants. I helped you for all of those months with various methods that surely failed. You curse at me and make me hate my own existence but I was still there.
Still there for you.
And then you cry and make a scene about it on tumblr. And I still tried to comfort you, even online. Then you usually go to avoiding me and glaring at me and once again, making me hate my own existence.
You know, if you're really in that bad of a mood, please don't try to make others feel that way.
 

Cheese

cured meat enthusiast
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
wow im a loser
i just want to be friends with this person whos really cool imo?? bluh
im p sure i come off as a creep though
i juST WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND SOBs
thats why i always ask you to get on skype
 

Lemondolly

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
You're ****ing joking, right?
IF YOU KNEW WHY WE ALL WERE MAD AT YOU THEN WHY DID YOU CRY WHEN I SUPPOSEDLY "REITERATED" IT TO YOU???
Because you didn't know the real reason, that's why.
Neither or us will forgive you for what you have done.
I swear, who back stabs their best friend by going out with her crush and then expects us to be okay with it? And if we're not okay with it "then we were never really your friends in the first place." Are you ****ing retard? Really? You are a disgusting human being. Shut the **** up, stop crying, stop hiding, and get real. Life isn't a dream. You can't do whatever you want without facing the consequences, you dumb bitch.
 

Avalia-Kasa

probably a potato tbh
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
I know I shouldn't rant about UTAU but ; v ;
I'm tired of this fandom saying we don't have enough originals, and then pushing aside the few that do make UTAU originals--not just me, but other people ; o ;
And because most people push me aside I'm afraid to get onto chats again, and I'm afraid to actually go out in the open on Skype.. I can't talk to many people like I used to be able to ; v ;
I guess I'm just losing my self-confidence, if I had any to begin with. orz;; I'm gonna go.
 

IrisFlower

Precious Flower with Thorns
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
Thanks, everyone.

Tomorrow, I'll be leaving for Louisiana to attend her funeral...the last funeral I went to was for my Uncle, but I never really saw him much(not saying I wasn't upset about losing him) but I saw my grandmother all the time...I've never lost someone so close to me, save for pets.

Nor have I watched their health decline right in front of my eyes and...it's going to be hard. I'm still plenty upset about it all...even though you eventually know better you think these people, your parents and grandparents, the people who raised you...you think they're invincible and will be around forever...but I'm doing my best to get through it. I know I will eventually with such awesome friends and my loving family. My family...you can see the sadness in everyones eyes but when we're all together we laugh and joke and comfort each other so I know we'll be alright in the end.

As for friends...

It's amazing...some(emphasize that some, and out of that some a lot have valid excuses) of my bestest of besties haven't said a word to me while others who I could have sworn were just acquaintances or passer-bys or just watching me cause I'm an UTAU user...are like coming out of the woodwork to cheer me up and send me good wishes and it really warms my heart. I think, the amount of times I've cried over losing my grandmother and the amount of times I've cried because of how sweet people have been are almost equal.
 

Iscabird

Ritsu's Renegades
Defender of Defoko
Why does everything have to be so emotionally draining for me? I feel like crying.
 

Dojan

Momo's Minion
Just a letter to a now ex-friend. I really liked him, he was the best friend I had for a long time, heck, he was my only friend. I have a hard time making new physical friends. However, he's been growing distant, and there's only so much energy which I can pour into a relationship without getting anything back.

He was the kind of friend whom would end your sentences, or think of exactly the same thing as you do at the same time. I really enjoyed our times together. It kind of sucks to see them come to an end.
Everything dies.

So... we've been friends for roughly five years now. That's probably the longest relationship I've had with anyone that's not my mother, nor my cat. I came to your school in the middle of a semester after moving from another school. I lost a few friends from the previous school. We simply lost contact and drifted apart, despite the fact that I haven't actually moved, my address and phone number remains the same.

I'm used to this, it's happened a lot of times before, and I guess that's life. I've never been on someone's "important" list, I've never been invited to any sort of outing or party. I've never received any letters from "physical" friends, people I've been in touch with. No one's ever come to my parties or actively pursued a relationship with me.

We live in an age where keeping contact is really easy. All you need is a mail address, or a name, or a number. Yet no one's made an effort to keep in contact with me.
You did though.

Two years ago we graduated from school. We moved on in different directions, and we kept contact. That was the first time something like that's ever happened to me. I made an active effort to keep this friendship stable, and it felt like we were good friends.

The first year you and I talked all the time. It was almost as if we didn't go to different schools. We spent lunch breaks together, talked during other breaks, evenings and such. I really liked that. Studying remotely made me very lonely, and you were the only friend I had. I really appreciated that.

This past year however, you've lost interest. You've rarely contacted me, you never reply to my messages or mails. You seem to put down close to no effort to keep this relationship going. Sometimes I come over to your place, and we spend time doing stuff, mostly it's me watching you playing xbox or listening to you talking, and to be honest, that's not very fun. I've been trying to keep this relationship going. I've been feeding it thoroughly, contacted you regularly. Tried to amuse you, I've invited you to play games with me, like we used to. I've invited you to various outings, like cafés and movies and such. You always turn me down, or ignore me. Even something as simple as a phone call.

A friendship goes both ways, and I don't care how few friends I have, if only one party is actively making an effort at keeping this friendship alive, then it's not going to last. So this is it. I'm through with you. Heck, you probably won't even notice that I'm gone, which sucks, because you were my best (and only) friend.

Some day you might reminisce, notice that I suddenly vanished and wonder what happened. Heck, maybe you'll even try to contact me. I wont be there. I've been here all this time, and you've been elsewhere.

This friendship has slowly been dying, despite my best efforts. So now I'm pulling the plug.
I'm really sorry that it has to end like this, but it's not me, it's you.
 

theLooneyLibrarian

Teto's Territory
Thread starter
And now, on this wonderful christmas morning, it's time for Looney's annual **** You awards.
It's just me being angry at people, but maybe that sort of thing amuses you, so...
**** You number one goes to...
...that Belgian guy who wrecked my car. So you thought driving while shitfaced during a snowstorm was a pretty good idea, didn't you? Well, newsflash: Even in Germany, during a snowstorm while drunk a sign that reads "STOP" means ****ing STOP and not "hurrdurrdurr I'll just drive right across the ****ing freeway, it's not like there are any other people on that road, lol1!"
So, thanks to you, my car is a heap of scrap metal and my right hand is a scorched mess, vaguely resembling Freddy Kruger's face. **** YOU! See you in court, butt.
That was fun, wasn't it?
Now. **** You number two goes to...
...those people I called friends in high school. In april we promised each other to be best friend for ever and ever. Now it's december and you pretend we never even met. Nice. I guess nine years of friendship just dissolve over night, once you graduate. **** YOU! I don't need you, either.
And the final **** YOU this year goes to...
...my elder cousins and my grandma. I still love you, but you're a bag of dicks. You see, my gran has eight grandchildren. The three eldest are girls. I'm the youngest girl, my cousins Kathy and Fran are 3 and 4 years older than me. And so, you see, I'm the stupid one. Nothing I've ever done could compare to the miracles worked by Kathy and Fran.
"Look Gran, I make you a picture!" "Oh, that's nice, Looney, but Kathy can play the piano and the violin so well, why can't you do that? When she was your age, she could play Mozart and Bach already..."
"Look, Gran, I got an A on that test!" "Fran would have brought home an A+."
"Oh, Looney! I brought your favourite candy bars for all my grandchildren. But Fran brought her boyfriend, so I gave him yours. Better luck next time."
I get it. I'm stupid and I'm ugly and I'm a disgrace for the whole family. Yes, Kathy is waiting to get to get into medical school and Fran is getting her masters degree in psychology right now and what am I doing? German and Japanese Legal Studies? What a wast of time, right? Who needs lawyers anyway, I'm sure a monkey could do that! But Kathy's going to be a doctor and Fran a psychologist! They could have their own little clinic, while you're studying something useless.
Got the highest score ever on the entrance exam for Anglo-American Legal Studies? Don't care, look, Fran won a trip to Austria in the Lottery! I'm so proud of her!Why don't you ever do nice things like that,Looney? Well, **** YOU!
I hope you all enjoyed my little rants.
Merry Christmas to all of you and may 2013 be a little better than 2012.
 

Jpegurl

Teto's Territory
Jpe you idiot.

I know you've been rather emotionally unstable lately, I know you're socially awkward, and I know about all the other stuff. But it's not every day you get invited to chat with people you admire. But what did you do? You let all these little problems get in the way of you having a really good time and possibly making friends with them. You just sat there, listening to them and barely contributing. You probably gave them a really bad impression of you.

Good going.
(BTW, this one has nothing to do with ANY of you. Everyone here is so amazing and nice to me. QwQ<3 I can't even begin to express how much you guys mean to me.)

Why is everything so hard? Why does everything hurt do much more now? Why did you cry when you're supposed to be strong? What the heck happened?

Why did you want to mold yourself into that kind of person, a strong, cold one, when you at last got the chance for a new start? Look where you've ended up because of it. A weak emotionally insecure girl with a stupid strong front. Wearing a mask that makes everything hurt more, not less. Someone with too many problems resulted from your own idiotic decisions. Someone so easily hurt that even being left alone makes you feel sad. That sarcastic, mean, cold girl in the back who's hurting on the inside.

Every time you were the odd one out, every time you made a conversation stop dead, every single time you made a person stop smiling has grooved into your heart and chipped your shield. Now these moments happen far more often, causing the assault to get even worse. One day your shield, your mask, will break, and the rest of you will too.
 

Asteriski

Teto's Territory
Please, just say something... I can't have missed you every time. All three messages can't have just been eaten. I see you reblogging things, so please, just say something! Anything! I can't be mad at you. I think I lost the ability to do that last summer. I'm just... absolutely miserable, I guess? Just feeling like you're ignoring me. I can't stand to feel this alone.
 

SakisCookie

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
UGH THE WEEABOOS I CAN'T STAND THEM BUT APPARENTLY WHEN I SPEAK UP ABOUT HOW ANNOYING THEY ARE SUDDENLY I'LL BE THE JERK BUT I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE SASIUHQIUHDIAUHSIUSHIUDHAIUSDHASIUHDIUASDH
 

shinami

Procrastination Queen
Tutor
Supporter
Defender of Defoko
SakisCookie link said:
UGH THE WEEABOOS I CAN'T STAND THEM BUT APPARENTLY WHEN I SPEAK UP ABOUT HOW ANNOYING THEY ARE SUDDENLY I'LL BE THE JERK BUT I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE SASIUHQIUHDIAUHSIUSHIUDHAIUSDHASIUHDIUASDH
*hugs in sympathy of irritation at weeaboos*

and my complaint of the day

SOUNDCLOUD
UPLOAD
NOOOOOOOOOOW
jfklsjkflsalkfjl
so angry about all the websites updating themselves into things my poor little less than 2 RAM computer can't handle
 

PKLpikachu

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
swearing and no periods ahead
****ing shit i knew this was going to happen he left because of me i'm a terrible person i'm gonna end up alone i'm not good at being a friend i'm so selfish he's never gonna come back no matter what i do this is a shitty way to start the year **** everything **** **** ****
i want to cry but i don't want my parents to ask me what's wrong they're against online relationships i've kept my online friends as a secret from them i hate this i can't stop listening to sad songs help me i need help i need a hug help me i want to cry i want to let it all out someone help me please
things just got from bad to worse i think my friend committed suicide he suddenly stopped posting stuff on tumblr he's not answering his messages i'm so worried he said he was going to end his life i'm scared i'm worried i don't know what to do i've never felt so powerless in my life i need to know if everything will be okay someone help me i can't take this someone help me please i need help
 

SakisCookie

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
Something my parents will never say.

Wow, it sure isn't fair that Courtney hasn't been able to use her room for almost a year, since her aunt moved in with us and completely kicked her out to the couch. You know, it's hard for her to sleep out there because the cats are nocturnal and cause total chaos at night. I think the LEAST WE COULD ****ING DO IS NOT GO OUT THERE WHILE SHE'S ASLEEP AND MAKE ALL THE GODDAM NOISE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD. HOW ABOUT WE STOP TALKING TO THE CATS WHILE COURTNEY IS LITERALLY THREE FEET AWAY, ALREADY SOBBING INTO HER PILLOW BECAUSE SHE HASN'T GOTTEN A FULL NIGHT'S SLEEP IN OVER TWO MONTHS.
 

Lemondolly

Teto's Territory
Defender of Defoko
I don't want to be mean anymore, but I just have such a low tolerance for people! I always want things to go my way, and that's not right. Subconsciously, I tend to think I am better than everyone else. Like I deserve something more, and that's not true. I always feel like I get nothing for the amount of work I put into things, and that also is not true. I really wish I could take back some of the things I said to people. I wish we could start over. I wish it didn't have to be like this. Things were better when I didn't talk to people. I thought that I, for once, could actually make friends. But all I ever do is piss people off. Someone always has to hate me even though I do nothing to deserve it. I just try to make friends. Am I so fake to them that they have to assume I'm such a snotty person who tears people apart by judgements when I meet them? I just wanted friends. I'm sorry to all of the people I've been mean to, but I can't apologize to all of them individually. I just want everyone to forgive me. I can't take all of those nasty things I've said to them, and I truly want to start fresh with them, but it's impossible. I just hope some miracle comes along and I can give my apologies to all of these people. I can't keep making new accounts and pretending to be someone new, because I'm actually starting to make new friends on this account. I'm sorry.
 

Austria

Momo's Minion
Defender of Defoko
shut up just shut up
idgaf if that's what you think
but respect my opinions ok