Whether it's making covers, character design, or recording the VB, what helps you stay or be motivated for UTAU? I don't normally discuss personal life issues (ie: mental/physical/emotional issues) but lately my Chronic Depression has been hitting me hard this year & I just have such a hard time finding the motivation & satisfaction of working with UTAU (and Vocaloid). I remember how when I first started back in 2014 I was so happy & excited, I would study on different tutorials, practiced my pronunciations, perfected my editing & other works when it came to UTAU. I was so proud of making my first (well made & accidental) utauloid NeeNeeko-chan, I loved making covers with her & sharing her around.
But now I just have a hard time with anything (not just with UTAU but I won't bore you with my other issues). When I go to make & experiment VBs Ill record half of the VCV reclist only to be so disappointed by it & myself (mind this this is after recording/editing/& saving files to the folder) that I will just delete everything, a half hours work just deleted. I try to get back into making cvers with my NeeNeeko but part way in the cover creation & get plagued of thoughts like "why bother?" -- "she isn't really good" -- "She's just a CV, no one cares about a CV" and on wards, then an hour of fine tuning envelopes/pitches/portamento/ect. just gets deleted because I just feels so horrible at what I'm doing.
I just feel like nothing I do is worth a listen to by people, yet even though I know I'm good at oto.ini, I'm good at my pronunciations, I'm good at editing in the UTAU program, and I'm (kinda, really depends on the song) good at mixing covers. I know all of this but I just feel like what I do isn't good somehow & lose my motivation.
I'm sorry for this being long but I think that maybe people wouldn't necessarily know what I meant unless I really explained it a little thoroughly.
So what helps your guys' motivation? I don't want to give up on UTAU but at this point I'm afraid of throwing in the towel.
But now I just have a hard time with anything (not just with UTAU but I won't bore you with my other issues). When I go to make & experiment VBs Ill record half of the VCV reclist only to be so disappointed by it & myself (mind this this is after recording/editing/& saving files to the folder) that I will just delete everything, a half hours work just deleted. I try to get back into making cvers with my NeeNeeko but part way in the cover creation & get plagued of thoughts like "why bother?" -- "she isn't really good" -- "She's just a CV, no one cares about a CV" and on wards, then an hour of fine tuning envelopes/pitches/portamento/ect. just gets deleted because I just feels so horrible at what I'm doing.
I just feel like nothing I do is worth a listen to by people, yet even though I know I'm good at oto.ini, I'm good at my pronunciations, I'm good at editing in the UTAU program, and I'm (kinda, really depends on the song) good at mixing covers. I know all of this but I just feel like what I do isn't good somehow & lose my motivation.
I'm sorry for this being long but I think that maybe people wouldn't necessarily know what I meant unless I really explained it a little thoroughly.
So what helps your guys' motivation? I don't want to give up on UTAU but at this point I'm afraid of throwing in the towel.