I want to take her on a sort-of date to the school gladiator fight, but the universe is conspiring against me. ;A; The first one was canceled, and now it's been scheduled on the same day as one of her club meetings...
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Vent/Rant Thread
- Thread starter theLooneyLibrarian
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Jpegurl
Teto's Territory
Come on, just turn around, please.
No, on second thought, don't. If you talk to me I'll get all nervous and say something really really stupid and make you think I'm a idiot. So it's better if you don't turn around.
But still, I wanna talk to you. I wanna at least be your friend.
No, that can't happen. If I don't say something stupid I'll make you unhappy or uncomfortable, like I seem to do to a lot of people lately.
I guess it's best this way?
Besides, you have plenty of good friends. You don't need some pessimistic girl hanging around. Especially since you have a really pretty girl as one of your best friends.
But....
No, on second thought, don't. If you talk to me I'll get all nervous and say something really really stupid and make you think I'm a idiot. So it's better if you don't turn around.
But still, I wanna talk to you. I wanna at least be your friend.
No, that can't happen. If I don't say something stupid I'll make you unhappy or uncomfortable, like I seem to do to a lot of people lately.
I guess it's best this way?
Besides, you have plenty of good friends. You don't need some pessimistic girl hanging around. Especially since you have a really pretty girl as one of your best friends.
But....
This relationship is coming to an end. I just want to let her break up with me instead of me break up with her, though, because if I know that she really likes me and I don't want to hurt he feelings. We used to be best friends and I don't want her to hate me.
I rather more that people don't read this, it's mostly to help calm me down
I hate that i'm doing another rant already but this is more of trying to stop my mental breakdown
I'm at a point where i just give up in life. There are a couple reasons, but my dad is the biggest cause for this. I give up with trying to do anything. ANYTHING. It always seems to be wrong. Or even worse, he makes me feel good for a VERY short time, and then puts me down so much that i'm practically running into my room and rocking on my bed. Even as i'm typing this i'm crying, hyperventilating, and rocking back and forth. I'm just gonna sum up what happened today alone:
- Get home, i get crazy heavy (But so fake) praise for my grades
-ten minutes later, randomly, i ask my mom "Does this go in his room?"
HE SCREAMS AT ME, "Oh, so now it's "HIS?" I stared at him for a minute, and he asked again
I just said there and said "Well, yeah"
Screams at me saying that i'm a disrespectful piece of trash
about 15 minutes ago
I go upstairs with his food for dinner
1.) I put his food tray down wrong apparently
2.) I nearly spilled his food according to him (I stared at his stupid mashed potatoes and steak on a HUGE plate, it didn't even BUDGE) and says i'm a moron who can't do any stupid thing
3.) Says i put my finger in his food, when my finger was on the side, and not on the bottom, because the food and plate was VERY.VERY.HOT. MY MOM EVEN TOLD ME TO HOLD IT LIKE THAT
I go back down and my mom asks me while i'm going down, quote on quote, "What did you 'do wrong?' " (with air quotes)
Before i even SAY anything, he screams at calling me worthless, ugly, useless, then my mom screams "No, I asked HER a question!"
Before my mom even finished, he slammed his door shut and yelled "LALALALALALALA!"
then when I went back up crying, he yelled i was why he can't wait to leave our family
I'm at a point where i don't even want to bother doing ANYTHING. ANYTHING, anymore, because i'm always a piece of useless trash for it or for how i do it
I just god to honest want to give up
You can all say i'm overreacting, oh friggin well. This is how my life's been going for the past, let's see, he left my mom for the first time for my friend's mom when i was in 3rd grade, so, 7+ years now. I cannot handle this anymore
I'm at a point where i just give up in life. There are a couple reasons, but my dad is the biggest cause for this. I give up with trying to do anything. ANYTHING. It always seems to be wrong. Or even worse, he makes me feel good for a VERY short time, and then puts me down so much that i'm practically running into my room and rocking on my bed. Even as i'm typing this i'm crying, hyperventilating, and rocking back and forth. I'm just gonna sum up what happened today alone:
- Get home, i get crazy heavy (But so fake) praise for my grades
-ten minutes later, randomly, i ask my mom "Does this go in his room?"
HE SCREAMS AT ME, "Oh, so now it's "HIS?" I stared at him for a minute, and he asked again
I just said there and said "Well, yeah"
Screams at me saying that i'm a disrespectful piece of trash
about 15 minutes ago
I go upstairs with his food for dinner
1.) I put his food tray down wrong apparently
2.) I nearly spilled his food according to him (I stared at his stupid mashed potatoes and steak on a HUGE plate, it didn't even BUDGE) and says i'm a moron who can't do any stupid thing
3.) Says i put my finger in his food, when my finger was on the side, and not on the bottom, because the food and plate was VERY.VERY.HOT. MY MOM EVEN TOLD ME TO HOLD IT LIKE THAT
I go back down and my mom asks me while i'm going down, quote on quote, "What did you 'do wrong?' " (with air quotes)
Before i even SAY anything, he screams at calling me worthless, ugly, useless, then my mom screams "No, I asked HER a question!"
Before my mom even finished, he slammed his door shut and yelled "LALALALALALALA!"
then when I went back up crying, he yelled i was why he can't wait to leave our family
I'm at a point where i don't even want to bother doing ANYTHING. ANYTHING, anymore, because i'm always a piece of useless trash for it or for how i do it
I just god to honest want to give up
You can all say i'm overreacting, oh friggin well. This is how my life's been going for the past, let's see, he left my mom for the first time for my friend's mom when i was in 3rd grade, so, 7+ years now. I cannot handle this anymore
@Snow
I'm sorry. You probably don't want me responding to this, but I feel like I need to say something.
I'm sorry. You probably don't want me responding to this, but I feel like I need to say something.
It sounds like you're being subjected to a lot of abuse in your household. I'm sorry that this is happening to you, and if I could do something, I would want to help you. This relationship your father has with you is not healthy. He is oppressing you, and abusing you. Listen to me. You are not the problem. It doesn't matter what he says to justify it, because you do not deserve this treatment. I don't know your situation very well. Hell, I hardly know you, but believe me when I say that you deserve to be happy, and you deserve to be treated better then that.
TheSnowSongstress link said:
You probably don't want more responses, but you're my waifu and I love you.
You know you can just ask for my number, right? You can call me or text me anytime you need me. Fawkesy and Megan already have it. D:
I'll talk to you whenever you need it.
*cough* Uh this one is pretty long, guys. I wouldn't suggest reading. I just needed some sort of closure.
I can't believe she is ignoring me after she broke up with me. I regret every moment I went out with. All I really wanted was affection and she could give it to me. I was blinded but the need to be loved by him that I tricked myself into thinking that I liked her when really I only like the attention. If I could go back in time, I would have never gone out with her and told him how I felt, but instead I had to date her and wind up losing a best friend. This could have been avoided if I hadn't been so stupid with my actions. :T
But I really do believe most of it is her fault.
And you don't break up with somebody by telling them "it's not working out."
WTF?
Tell them what they did wrong so they can learn for future relationships omg wth!
I had the entire break up planned out in my head but you pulled me aside before I could pull you aside.
How this thing was supposed to work was I was supposed to ask to talk to you privately and we would go into the shade under the trees and I would tell you that I wasn't happy with the way you were being secretive lately and how I was no longer happy in our relationship. I was going to tell you that I would like to keep it going only if you agreed to be more open with me. If you said no, then I would just say that this relationship wouldn't work out because there is a lack of communication.
But you just gave me, "it's not working out."
*sigh*
"Can we still be friends?"
"Yeah."
If you asked me that, then why did you ignore me all today. And you act weirded out by my sister saying hi to you. And you didn't say hi at all today to me.
PLUS I learned that you have a reputation for short relationships.
You are a very controlling person. You would make decisions for me. You never can carry a conversation. All you ever talk about it your drawings and Masada, one of the most flat characters I have ever made the displeasure of laying my eyes upon. You have the most bizarre interests. You yourself are a bizarre person. How did I ever find you attractive? You never spoke what was on your mind and then when you did bring something up you would say "I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT."
I want things to go back to how they were. When we were still best friends. We should have never roleplayed. Ever. That one roleplay ruined everything. I wanted to leave you in the first month but I couldn't do it. Especially since it had been so long and you told me you loved me but I knew deep down I didn't feel the same.
You are a terrible partner but a wonderful person. You're pretty and funny. You also are very creative and artistic. You come up with wonderful and hilarious ideas. I like talking to you but.... things just didn't work out. You're right about me not wanting to talk to you sometimes. All you ever talked about, like I said, was drawing and Masada.
Maybe one day you'll stop for a second and regret all of the things that you did.
You wasted two entire months of my love life.
You made me believe I was loved.
You ended a friendship.
But you also gave me knowledge.
I know what kind of people to avoid in future relationships.
I learned that communication is very important in a relationship.
People shouldn't always be given second chances.
I'm not bisexual.
And I'll always treasure as a friend.
I probably won't remember you in the future.
But if I do
I'll remember all of the terrible things you made me feel
And how happy I was that you taught me all of these things.
The last thing I learned was that ranting feels good. ^^
EDIT: I think that she also was cheating on me and it sure as hell seems like she's dating and doesn't want me know. UMMMMM WE BROKE UP ONLY TWO DAYS AGO DA FUQ
But I really do believe most of it is her fault.
And you don't break up with somebody by telling them "it's not working out."
WTF?
Tell them what they did wrong so they can learn for future relationships omg wth!
I had the entire break up planned out in my head but you pulled me aside before I could pull you aside.
How this thing was supposed to work was I was supposed to ask to talk to you privately and we would go into the shade under the trees and I would tell you that I wasn't happy with the way you were being secretive lately and how I was no longer happy in our relationship. I was going to tell you that I would like to keep it going only if you agreed to be more open with me. If you said no, then I would just say that this relationship wouldn't work out because there is a lack of communication.
But you just gave me, "it's not working out."
*sigh*
"Can we still be friends?"
"Yeah."
If you asked me that, then why did you ignore me all today. And you act weirded out by my sister saying hi to you. And you didn't say hi at all today to me.
PLUS I learned that you have a reputation for short relationships.
You are a very controlling person. You would make decisions for me. You never can carry a conversation. All you ever talk about it your drawings and Masada, one of the most flat characters I have ever made the displeasure of laying my eyes upon. You have the most bizarre interests. You yourself are a bizarre person. How did I ever find you attractive? You never spoke what was on your mind and then when you did bring something up you would say "I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT."
I want things to go back to how they were. When we were still best friends. We should have never roleplayed. Ever. That one roleplay ruined everything. I wanted to leave you in the first month but I couldn't do it. Especially since it had been so long and you told me you loved me but I knew deep down I didn't feel the same.
You are a terrible partner but a wonderful person. You're pretty and funny. You also are very creative and artistic. You come up with wonderful and hilarious ideas. I like talking to you but.... things just didn't work out. You're right about me not wanting to talk to you sometimes. All you ever talked about, like I said, was drawing and Masada.
Maybe one day you'll stop for a second and regret all of the things that you did.
You wasted two entire months of my love life.
You made me believe I was loved.
You ended a friendship.
But you also gave me knowledge.
I know what kind of people to avoid in future relationships.
I learned that communication is very important in a relationship.
People shouldn't always be given second chances.
I'm not bisexual.
And I'll always treasure as a friend.
I probably won't remember you in the future.
But if I do
I'll remember all of the terrible things you made me feel
And how happy I was that you taught me all of these things.
The last thing I learned was that ranting feels good. ^^
EDIT: I think that she also was cheating on me and it sure as hell seems like she's dating and doesn't want me know. UMMMMM WE BROKE UP ONLY TWO DAYS AGO DA FUQ
Why I even friends with him? Our relationship was rocky from the start. I don't even know why I try to keep our friendship together... He's fed up with me. He'll leave me soon. I know it.
I'm sick of catering to her family just to be friends with her. Goddammit, we are not lesbians! We are snuggly by nature, and we like to lean on each other. Is that a crime now?
Please don't read this /huge post, I just wanted to cry and let some things out of my system. It took a while to write this as my tears kept falling on the keyboard.
And then a longer time, hovering over the post button... ｡ï¼ï¾(｡ï¾Ï＼｡)ï¾ï½¥ï½¡
I'm really not the type of person who is usually upset about things. In real life I'm generally charismatic (despite how overwhelmingly ostentatious I am) and I've never fallen out with any of my real life friends -ever. None of my real friends have seen me looking upset, let alone cry. But at home I lead a completely different life that I haven't shared with anyone but my best friend. But I seriously cant keep this up anymore.
I give up on my parents.
Yes I understand asian parents and their ycgvjvg,jb over grades and studying and whatever, but they're seriously too much. Its my life. If I want to drop out of college, its also my choice. Calling over half the entire family to interfere for no real reason, is over the top -and then blaming me for making them come over for no reason just because I don't want to see them.
Have you ever considered what I wanted to do with my life? Never.
Not even when I was a child. From the bottom of my heart, my childhood dream was to be a Circus performer- something you'll probably never know. Something I probably couldn't say.
Even now, you probably think I wanted to be 'scientist'.
Funny isn't it? I learnt how to lie from such a young age.
Somewhere along the line I started pursuing things I had interest in- of course you didn't care. I've won competitions, I have poetry that was published, even my own light novel that was published while I was in high school. I achieved a Distinction in the Expressive arts and even had an examiner request to use my work... clearly its still not worth anything.
I achieve above average grades and was invited to the a special award ceremony -still wasn't good enough. You're always comparing me to others. always. Even if there was just one person who did better, you'll be disappointed in me.
But even so, when you're talking to all the people you know, you'll brag about my achievements, despite how you insult me for how menial they are?
You're always complaining how I'm so boyish, and how I don't act or dress like a girl- you're hypocritical. I remember as a young girl I tried to look cute and do girly things but you'd just say it was terrible and get mad at me. Isn't that what little girls do? They're young and playful and being childish. But you just got angry as though I did something extremely bad.
Yet, when it came to my little sister, you did nothing? Hilarious.
Anything I even mentioned about the possibility of pursuing, your excuse would be 'oh it's rubbish, not enough pay, etc'.
Do you think i care about money? i'd be fine with just enough to survive whilst doing something I truly enjoy. What kinda of parents are you that you pretty much only care about material value; How money is everything in life? Maybe in yours, but in mine it surely isn't.
Every time you get into an argument with me, you try to sort it out with money -seriously i'm fed up. And you wonder what my problem is? Its disgusting to accept that kind of money from you. The few things I've truly wanted, I've bought by myself, and will continue to do so. These small fleeting passions of mine is how I've been able to find peace at home.
You wonder why I stopped bringing my friends home? It was real nice watching you put on the lovable sweet mother act and nosing around every 2 seconds, very entertaining.
You think I'm the problem child, but I assure you that you have no idea what your 'other children' do. It's not my place to tell you, but I'm sure you'll find out someday -i'd love to see the look on your face when that happens. That lovely son of yours, that you spoil endlessly. Asking you for money or favors, every other day - all spent on junk. That probably could have been better spent on third world children.
And then there's me. I never ask for these kind of things. Oh wait there is one thing; on my -18th- Birthday. I asked you for only One thing. Haha. And even though it was only one thing, I never received it. You want to know what that one thing was? Thai noodles from my Favorite takeaway. Yes I know - I ask for quite the expensive present ahaha. 'You were too busy at the gym all day and didn't have time to go there'. This is why I gave up on 'expectations' - so I wouldn't have to cope with disappointment. You never listen to anything that comes out of my mouth. It's no surprise I stopped talking to you. And you wonder why I stopped asking for things?
You're so closed minded. Forcing things such as religion on to children by force and using 'god' as a threat. I thought religion was something that brought people closer together? Yeah, you probably don't even know that I don't even believe in any religion.
I remember a few years ago at how you'd complain because I 'talked back', that's real funny, because when I'm silent you complain too? What do you want me to do? Be your beautiful display doll?
You put a lock on my door for my satisfaction and then I catch you one time opening it when I was sure I locked it. Then you lie about not having a key and how it was already open. These stories no longer amuse me. Truth is I caught you opening it twice before, but said nothing. Despite how fleeting and invisible I may seem, I don't make baseless accusations like you okay.
I walked out of the house, to go sit on the swings till morning. But when you come to find me, the only thing you care about is 'what other people will say'. ahahah. I seriously cant laugh any more. I'm no longer the innocent child that was victimized. Truthfully, I can be a very cruel person. You think you're always right, but I assure you, wisdom doesn't always come with age. I love your reasoning for everything. honestly, I do. 'She's mad because I kept nagging her' ahahah. I wish that was the case. Once I get my life sorted, I'll be leaving this place for good -and in that very instant, I will destroy your precious 'lifestyle' and unmask you for what you really are. Even thought its not as bad for them, I feel sorry for my younger siblings that have to put up with you -its a bad influence on them.
And I hope you sincerely know, I hate you. And I have long since disowned you as my parents. You will no longer control my life.
I apologize for being all over the place, it really isn't like me.
I am not asking for pity or half-assed sympathy, I find it disgusting.
And if you were to say anything to me now, I'd take it as lies, because at times I can be truly cold-hearted.
But if anyone can relate to my experiences, a simple hug would be okay.
I give up on my parents.
Yes I understand asian parents and their ycgvjvg,jb over grades and studying and whatever, but they're seriously too much. Its my life. If I want to drop out of college, its also my choice. Calling over half the entire family to interfere for no real reason, is over the top -and then blaming me for making them come over for no reason just because I don't want to see them.
Have you ever considered what I wanted to do with my life? Never.
Not even when I was a child. From the bottom of my heart, my childhood dream was to be a Circus performer- something you'll probably never know. Something I probably couldn't say.
Even now, you probably think I wanted to be 'scientist'.
Funny isn't it? I learnt how to lie from such a young age.
Somewhere along the line I started pursuing things I had interest in- of course you didn't care. I've won competitions, I have poetry that was published, even my own light novel that was published while I was in high school. I achieved a Distinction in the Expressive arts and even had an examiner request to use my work... clearly its still not worth anything.
I achieve above average grades and was invited to the a special award ceremony -still wasn't good enough. You're always comparing me to others. always. Even if there was just one person who did better, you'll be disappointed in me.
But even so, when you're talking to all the people you know, you'll brag about my achievements, despite how you insult me for how menial they are?
You're always complaining how I'm so boyish, and how I don't act or dress like a girl- you're hypocritical. I remember as a young girl I tried to look cute and do girly things but you'd just say it was terrible and get mad at me. Isn't that what little girls do? They're young and playful and being childish. But you just got angry as though I did something extremely bad.
Yet, when it came to my little sister, you did nothing? Hilarious.
Anything I even mentioned about the possibility of pursuing, your excuse would be 'oh it's rubbish, not enough pay, etc'.
Do you think i care about money? i'd be fine with just enough to survive whilst doing something I truly enjoy. What kinda of parents are you that you pretty much only care about material value; How money is everything in life? Maybe in yours, but in mine it surely isn't.
Every time you get into an argument with me, you try to sort it out with money -seriously i'm fed up. And you wonder what my problem is? Its disgusting to accept that kind of money from you. The few things I've truly wanted, I've bought by myself, and will continue to do so. These small fleeting passions of mine is how I've been able to find peace at home.
You wonder why I stopped bringing my friends home? It was real nice watching you put on the lovable sweet mother act and nosing around every 2 seconds, very entertaining.
You think I'm the problem child, but I assure you that you have no idea what your 'other children' do. It's not my place to tell you, but I'm sure you'll find out someday -i'd love to see the look on your face when that happens. That lovely son of yours, that you spoil endlessly. Asking you for money or favors, every other day - all spent on junk. That probably could have been better spent on third world children.
And then there's me. I never ask for these kind of things. Oh wait there is one thing; on my -18th- Birthday. I asked you for only One thing. Haha. And even though it was only one thing, I never received it. You want to know what that one thing was? Thai noodles from my Favorite takeaway. Yes I know - I ask for quite the expensive present ahaha. 'You were too busy at the gym all day and didn't have time to go there'. This is why I gave up on 'expectations' - so I wouldn't have to cope with disappointment. You never listen to anything that comes out of my mouth. It's no surprise I stopped talking to you. And you wonder why I stopped asking for things?
You're so closed minded. Forcing things such as religion on to children by force and using 'god' as a threat. I thought religion was something that brought people closer together? Yeah, you probably don't even know that I don't even believe in any religion.
I remember a few years ago at how you'd complain because I 'talked back', that's real funny, because when I'm silent you complain too? What do you want me to do? Be your beautiful display doll?
You put a lock on my door for my satisfaction and then I catch you one time opening it when I was sure I locked it. Then you lie about not having a key and how it was already open. These stories no longer amuse me. Truth is I caught you opening it twice before, but said nothing. Despite how fleeting and invisible I may seem, I don't make baseless accusations like you okay.
I walked out of the house, to go sit on the swings till morning. But when you come to find me, the only thing you care about is 'what other people will say'. ahahah. I seriously cant laugh any more. I'm no longer the innocent child that was victimized. Truthfully, I can be a very cruel person. You think you're always right, but I assure you, wisdom doesn't always come with age. I love your reasoning for everything. honestly, I do. 'She's mad because I kept nagging her' ahahah. I wish that was the case. Once I get my life sorted, I'll be leaving this place for good -and in that very instant, I will destroy your precious 'lifestyle' and unmask you for what you really are. Even thought its not as bad for them, I feel sorry for my younger siblings that have to put up with you -its a bad influence on them.
And I hope you sincerely know, I hate you. And I have long since disowned you as my parents. You will no longer control my life.
I apologize for being all over the place, it really isn't like me.
I am not asking for pity or half-assed sympathy, I find it disgusting.
And if you were to say anything to me now, I'd take it as lies, because at times I can be truly cold-hearted.
But if anyone can relate to my experiences, a simple hug would be okay.
And then a longer time, hovering over the post button... ｡ï¼ï¾(｡ï¾Ï＼｡)ï¾ï½¥ï½¡
Angel
Momo's Minion
ã·ã«ã¢ã | Shiruaki link said:
Hugs for you. (/^u^)/''<3
I can easily relate to you, though with my parents, I'm pretty chill (for now)
My dream is to become a manga artist, and I've already told my parents either that, an author or an animator. They accept it, but I remember awhile ago that I said I wanted to become a dentist, which was forced a little from my parents because of 'good pay'
Money for me doesn't matter (only if I can't afford no more cookies/food)
But I will do everything to achieve my dreams and you should too! ^u^
Animation final.
Stress levels rising way higher than they should.
Next person to think about breathing in my direction wrong is getting stabbed.
Try me.
Stress levels rising way higher than they should.
Next person to think about breathing in my direction wrong is getting stabbed.
Try me.
Stupid teenage "artist" problems. 
I get extremely jealous of good artists that are around my age. I know it's stupid, and I've been doing art all my life, but I still never feel like I'm good enough. I always compare myself to others. Why do i do this flurfhsk :c
Even though this time it's not a serious rant :
Gosh, I feel terrible for having done anything for my department while we were the 12/12/12 and our department's code is justly the twelve T^T
ImterribleImterribleImterrible
I want to hide in a corner so hard orz
ImterribleImterribleImterrible
I want to hide in a corner so hard orz
There's no need to read this....
My grandmother has been very sick for a few years now. And now well...she's been getting worse by the week and it's gotten to the point where she won't be around much longer so we're going up to see her before it's too late. This is hard for me...I thought I'd be ready for this but I should've known better. This is not how I wanted to spend my break. And please don't take that as me being like "because of her my break is ruined!"
Cause that's not it...I just don't want to lose her...but at the same time I'd rather her not have to suffer anymore. But I'm still going to miss her. Why do things like this have to happen? Sometimes I wish I could just curl up and disappear until all the bad and hurtful things went away. I don't think I'll handle this well.
Cause that's not it...I just don't want to lose her...but at the same time I'd rather her not have to suffer anymore. But I'm still going to miss her. Why do things like this have to happen? Sometimes I wish I could just curl up and disappear until all the bad and hurtful things went away. I don't think I'll handle this well.
IrisFlower link said:
Ah. I had the same experience.
My grandmother also has been sick for some years with heart problems (it runs in our family). I didn't speak much with her overall (since she can't speak very well because of her stroke), but I still loved her. And in her last hours alive, I cried. Hard.
She was going to leave me.
I told her. I told her she could make it, that I know she could, that it would all be okay in the morning. And she tried her best, but I guess she pushed herself too far.
She died at night.
She was going to leave me.
I told her. I told her she could make it, that I know she could, that it would all be okay in the morning. And she tried her best, but I guess she pushed herself too far.
She died at night.
I'm not very good at cheering others up, but I truly hope things get better for the both of you.
selcouthic link said:
Ah. I had the same experience.
My grandmother also has been sick for some years with heart problems (it runs in our family). I didn't speak much with her overall (since she can't speak very well because of her stroke), but I still loved her. And in her last hours alive, I cried. Hard.
She was going to leave me.
I told her. I told her she could make it, that I know she could, that it would all be okay in the morning. And she tried her best, but I guess she pushed herself too far.
She died at night.
She was going to leave me.
I told her. I told her she could make it, that I know she could, that it would all be okay in the morning. And she tried her best, but I guess she pushed herself too far.
She died at night.
I'm not very good at cheering others up, but I truly hope things get better for the both of you.
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I hope it doesn't seem rude for calling so much attention to this, but maybe my experience can provide some support, too?
My grandma died on the opening night of the play I was in last year. I was sort of relieved, because it had been rough going for a while. Her breast cancer came back, along with a few other ailments that I can't remember, and hospice was called. I really really loathe hospice. They drugged her to a point at which she was like a baby. And there was no need for it at all. The last time I saw my grandma, she sort of stared at me for a while, then pointed in amazement and identified me. It was too much...oh God I cried for days.
She left me a letter, too, when she died. Saying how proud she was of me and how I was her favorite grandchild...
She left me a letter, too, when she died. Saying how proud she was of me and how I was her favorite grandchild...